I just wanted to share this as a way to remind every one of you, that you are not hopeless. I was sober for 7 years and some change, and here I am looking for sobriety help again. I come not with shame or desperation; I come with hope for the future. I come with reassurance in the power of communal sobriety. Even if AA isn't something you're interested in, the important part is that when ready to do so, we are sharing experiences and wisdom with each other on honest, sober terms. Though I didn't hit rock bottom again, I jeopardized everything good in my life. I became verbally abusive while blackout drunk this weekend, and it crushed me to hear about it the following day. I had once again become the person I hated most, and I knew only self-destruction would follow. Outside of alcohol, everything in the relationship between my gf and I is wonderful. I am ashamed of myself though, and I just held her and cried on Sunday. I love her so much...I just can't bear the thought of breaking her heart because of my drunken stupidity. So, here I am. I feel good about sobriety, but past experiences also tell me not to view it through rose colored glasses. Sobriety is not easy, and I know that. Addiction is a tricky, cunning affliction that will lead one to justify one's own demise, if left unchecked. Be vigilant, my friends. More importantly; NEVER QUIT QUITTING.
A New Beginning for All of Us
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