Midlife crisis!

Hello,
I’m 26, and female.
I’m having a midlife crisis and I feel depressed more than ever.
My family is breaking apart, my partner is leaving me because he can’t be faithful to me and won’t accept that’s why he’s leaving.
He puts me down whenever he’s drunk, cheated on me a few times.
Recently, I had dropped acid.
I had the scariest trip I could possibly have. I could have killed myself.
My partner had talked so much shit to me that night and his mother.
I feel so alone and unloved.
I feel like I just should drink my life away and be this depressed drunk mess.
But I’m trying my best to avoid it.
My life is falling apart- but i think I can do it.

Today is the beginning for you, but you will need help. Alone is too much for us. Treatment works.