I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired..trying constantly to find all the drugs I need to feel "normal" and feel awesome when I have a lucky day finding everything I need to get to my good level which is my normal. I don't care about anything when I'm sober im too tired and don't feel happy like the drugs help me be. why why why did this have to happen to me. I'm having the hardest time getting out of this hell hole. I want a job and a husband and kids and using all day everyday wont give me that but I still don't want to be sober. to me sober is depressing and boring. I wish i didnt think like that. I'm addicted to everything and i got put on probation so I have to quit and it scares the hell out of me....ive got to change my thoughts on this.
having to quit even when you don't want to
created by: Kaili 5 years, 7 months ago
I didnt want to be sober either until I was on probation and forced to go to rehab and the rehab i went to was amazing. My fiance used with me and got sober with me which helped honestly, espcially in rehab. But rehab helped change the way I saw drugs. Good luck! Sadly sometimes we have to hit bottom to get sober. I relapsed way down the line and caught more charges and my fiance is back in prison for 7 years. I lost everything. My family, house, fiance and my friend whose younger than me (shes 20) was arrested for murder and is facing the death penatly. She was also an addict. Clean your life up before it falls to pieces!!
rehabilitation programs have been working for me so far...almost 2 months clean...don't give up..the world is a better place with you in it!
do you believe in God? If you do you will learn to understand like myself that don't ask why it happened to you God knew it was going to happen. He's going to bring you through this! he's already equipped you with everything you need you will get all those things that you hope for you just have to believe! I feel exactly like you do though I'm trying to get to a meeting tonight while I have been doing drugs all day and still have drugs in the house. I too I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired I will pray for you please pray for me.
no I don't believe in God. I got myself into this mess, and I'm getting myself out. no cravings been sober for month. you can do it. you need to believe in yourself. go to detox.
prayers for you Sanna. everyone has a different concept if a higher power. make meetings part of yours. get a list of people you can call.
I had no choice but to get sober or risk losing my kids. The first bit of getting sober sucked because I loved being high. but since I've been sober I can't even look back and think hmmm I miss it because I dont one bit. my depression is fading. my independence is coming back and everyday I get stronger. I'm here if you need someone to talk to as I've been exactly where you are
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ok, listen to yourself, you don't want to get sober but want a family and the American dream. I've lost everything I've worked for due to heroin. Arrested,(pending trail) declaring bankruptcy. I literally have to start all over. But at least I got my family and friends to be my support system. go to detox yo, trust me it's the best thing that you'll do for yourself. I'm 24 days sober and ive accomplished more in one day than my entire 8 months of use. so much money wasted smh. Trust me, getting clean will make you happy. It's worth it in the long run.
Hello You are worth it and you can do it. Nothing changes nothing changes. Meaning if you keep doing same thing you cant expect a different result. All you need to do is 1 day. No more. Just 1 day don't drink use. AA etc has been good for me. Also couceling Doctor etc. Hold On just for today for you. You are worth it. If I can do it you can. I was a drunk in the gutter with no hope. Today the world is wonderful.
exactly. im not going to let my past haunt me. I wanna start fresh no matter what it takes. I'mma get back to the way things were and not looks back.
Great to hear. Keep up the positive outlook. If I think I don't need a meeting or it is too cold too wet whatever. I think would I have gone out to get a drink in these conditions. The answer is yes. So why let it stop me from being sober. Keep holding on and I am always here for you.