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Today is 5 weeks clean after 30+ years of using

created by: MichaelB 4 years, 9 months ago



Life is so much better. Got lucky?, I guess because my DOC did not come with withdrawal symptoms. But the want and need was real. I guess the thing that really helped is that I spent all my money on the drug the week I quit; had like $20 to get me to the next payday so I had a 7 day jump on quitting. Once I got paid, I had a streak going that I didn't want to give up.
So here I am, 35 days clean. Still haven't gotten out of the dumps with my finances and cash on hand but I expect I will by the end of the month. Then I have to make good for all the bills that are in collection because of my drug use. One bill at a time.
But I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel and it feels really good. If I can do it, so can you.


by: MichaelB 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to MichaelB

Hello Michael. I’m 36 days sober today, so I feel a kinship with you! Congratulations to us! I have quit several times before. Once for nearly a year! The difference this time is I’ve finally admitted to myself that I have no control over alcohol. It always controls me in the end. I have no desire to drink right now. Still, I am being extremely vigilant in combatting the Wine Witch. I know that simply ignoring her and hoping she’ll fly off on her broom and pick on someone else is not going to happen. Hope you like yourself better these days. I know I do. Best to you!


by: Mara 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to Mara

I definitely do like myself better. I can now see a future where I'm not a slave to cocaine and where I can retire early and travel. Couldnt see that 2 months ago


by: MichaelB 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to MichaelB

Awesome! Remember this is a chronic disease with lifetime risk of relapse. We need a daily recovery program forever. What is your plan for daily recovery?


by: Clean 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to Clean

I journal and read the addictions boards every day. I dont even think about cocainec anymore whereas before it occupied my every waking thought. Feels good


by: MichaelB 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to MichaelB

So great to hear things are looking brighter for you Michael! No more toxins or poisons for me! I know it’s not as simple as that but for me,
It helps to think about it as no big deal. Sometimes I think that by giving the alcohol so much importance, it had a stronger hold on me. I’m just learning and maybe I’m still in the honeymoon stage, but it’s really very liberating. I remember when I finally quit smoking years ago. It was like losing a ball and chain. That’s what I’m praying for! Keep me posted! Mara


by: Mara 4 years, 9 months ago

Congratulations Michael! What are you doing for treatment? Are you using the SoberTool mobile app as one of your tool?


by: Clean 4 years, 9 months ago

I just quit cold Turkey and using a Facebook group and this app and doing daily journaling


by: MichaelB 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to MichaelB

good on you
I got clean after 25 year
find a meeting and go as often as you can


by: Greenelf 4 years, 9 months ago
replying to Greenelf

Appreciate you Greenelf. You live a good program.


by: Clean 4 years, 9 months ago