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Kidding Myself With False Starts

created by: Pip 5 months, 1 week ago

I stopped taking cocaine by taking myself away from my home town and going to another place with no money. I returned after cold turkey to take it again. I paid off the dealer and haven't been back to him for 2 weeks. I was claiming sobriety because I'm a big drinker and haven't drank a drop for those 2 weeks... But I know that me personally use the cycle of using paid for meds like ephedrine and codeine as a substitute. I have done this up until the day before yesterday. So I made a decision to end those also and have been literally clean for 48 hours. I have so much potential and I have misused my abilities in the past. Now I'm 2 weeks in but an honest 48 hours clean, I am starting to see different priorities, however, I'm worried that my selfishness will prevail. So... I have decided to seek out a 12 step program. I have never been to one and feel I am lazy. Finding motivation is hard for me. Anyway this is day 2.

by: Pip 5 months, 1 week ago

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