I can only make some sense of Life when I think something bigger is going on

Natural disasters, starvation, war, disease, and injustices abound. Trying to attach meaning to the human condition used to send me into confusion and dispair. It triggered my need to quiet my brain. I turned to my addiction to do so. Then, I just became more confused and I got into trouble. Today, I quiet my brain in a different way. Today, when I observe that I am trying to understand that which cannot be understood, I meditate on the fact that there is something going on behind the scenes. I focus on trusting that my Higher Power has a greater plan with greater objectives that transcend my ability to intellectually conceive.  Perhaps it's a character building exercise. Perhaps someone's crisis is an opportunity for someone else to help. Perhaps it's a lesson in perspective. Or perhaps, whatever it is, it's simply greater than I can understand. In that case, I must simply have faith, and this faith relieves my need to escape. Faith is the only answer.


To-do:

Observe your thinking. When confused, don't seek to understand. Rather, repeat to yourself that something bigger is going on.