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created by: Hells 3 years ago



There is no night so dark that there is no new sunrise. Each day a unique opportunity to write a new past and guide the future. I completed some 24 hours, but the most important is TODAY. Each day I renew the vows of AA's first step, I recognize my helplessness toward Alcohol and have decided not to drink, Only for today. Today is where We got power to rewrite and reinvent our history! We are together.


by: jasand 3 years ago
replying to jasand

Grateful for your message. For me, the darkest night comes from my making costly mistakes. Can you give me advice on how to forgive myself?


by: Grateful 3 years ago
replying to Grateful

The World Health Organization considers Alcohol a progressive, fatal, unhealed disease that leads to insanity.
  The end result of the active alcoholic is 3 possible: Internment, Prison or Premature Death.
  I committed acts that in 100% of the cases,Sober would never have committed.
  I have always helped, forgiven people, but in AA we talked to always consider us first and that AA is a selfish program. In fact, it is more a matter of "survival" than selfishness. How does loving or forgiving someone if not doing the same to me ?
It is a matter of turning to yourself for true emotional reconstruction. The AA’s meetings will help you on this journey. My Sponsor often tells me something simple but powerful, “What has no Solution resolved it is! That is, it is no longer a problem. Such is the past. One possible action on the past is to act today to rewrite a new past and guide the future. Today I see the mistakes I made and did not have the mind I have today to avoid them and even more, how could if I was insane under the influence of alcohol? In AA I loved myself and forgave me for the first time. It is an important step for reconstruction. Resentment is a terrible toxic feeling that leads to self-pity, to resent the facts. Quitting drinking was important, but without emotional reconstruction, breaking old standards, it is a time bomb. The meetings will help you on this magnificent journey. The AA’s BIG Book is a reference that can help with a forgiveness issue among others. Today I am at peace with my higher power and with me.
  We have the power to change our reality, all depending on how we see the life.
  It takes 47 years when I join AA, found Peace and start a splendid reconstruction. I have been for 3 years and 9 months on this journey. I have two options, recover and mourn for the 47 years that were not 100% ruins, but were mediocre and suffered by troubled emotions or be thankful ,day or day, for being at peace for 3 years and 9 months ? I choose the second option and it changes my Reality! My suggestion is that you go to meetings and read the BIG book. You will be surprised and fall in love with a person who has been with you for a lifetime and is unknown , “YOURSELF” ! We are together.


by: jasand 3 years ago
replying to jasand

Thank you Jasand! I will love others and love myself. I will forgive others and myself. I will get to meetings and read the Big Book. For problems that are not resolved, I will try to make amends, then let go. For resolved problems, I will let go. I will keep being grateful and practice emotional reconstruction.


by: Grateful 3 years ago
replying to Grateful

Today, reviewing my past, the situations that I put myself unnecessarily, without arrogance, but I am the person I owe the most excuses!

Recalling my entry into AA and my journey today, I can sum up that I found myself, shook my hands, said sorry, and said Let’s start over?

There is an AA reflection that talks about a 72-year-old man who, before much dismay, took an inventory and wrote a list of blessings. He filled a few leaves and among the blessings was waking up, being healthy, sober, family, having food, where to live, etc. From this list he came to the conclusion that what bothered him before was small in relation to his true blessings.

It is said in AA that the solution to our problems is spirituality, which has nothing to do with religion.
Well fitting your nickname, because Spirituality has a lot to do with Gratitude.

Gratitude and Love is one of the most powerful forces on the planet. Going to the meeting gives us the gift of being able to reach out to those who still suffer, and this is one of the greatest blessings. As the Golden Principle wisely says, "We only keep what we have by giving it to others."

So I was wrong a lot in the past, but this is past, because today I did not drink and gradually become a better version than I was yesterday, this is a great blessing. Think about it.

When I joined I heard from a brother
“I made a mistake, but I'm not a mistake ...
   I failed, but I'm not a failure ...

This is how I follow in battle to become a better version day by day without
Hurry, lightly!


by: jasand 3 years ago
replying to Grateful

Today, reviewing my past, the situations that I put myself unnecessarily, without arrogance, but I am the person I owe the most excuses!

Recalling my entry into AA and my journey today, I can sum up that I found myself, shook my hands, said sorry, and said Let’s start over?

There is an AA reflection that talks about a 72-year-old man who, before much dismay, took an inventory and wrote a list of blessings. He filled a few leaves and among the blessings was waking up, being healthy, sober, family, having food, where to live, etc. From this list he came to the conclusion that what bothered him before was small in relation to his true blessings.

It is said in AA that the solution to our problems is spirituality, which has nothing to do with religion.
Well fitting your nickname, because Spirituality has a lot to do with Gratitude.

Gratitude and Love is one of the most powerful forces on the planet. Going to the meeting gives us the gift of being able to reach out to those who still suffer, and this is one of the greatest blessings. As the Golden Principle wisely says, "We only keep what we have by giving it to others."

So I was wrong a lot in the past, but this is past, because today I did not drink and gradually become a better version than I was yesterday, this is a great blessing. Think about it.

When I joined I heard from a brother
“I made a mistake, but I'm not a mistake ...
   I failed, but I'm not a failure ...

This is how I follow in battle to become a better version day by day without
Hurry, lightly!


by: jasand 3 years ago
replying to jasand

thank you Jasand. I will meditate on your last email and follow your suggestions as I am sure they are well-founded and based in AA. I have 31 years sober but I'm still in the process of emotional reconstruction. It is a daily process for me. I particularly find helpful you are saying that I make mistakes, but I am not a mistake. Thank you for helping dig me out of this pity party I am having. it is starting to pass.


by: Grateful 3 years ago
replying to Grateful

I'm happy for you.
I often say that the AA meeting is a spirituality’s Gym.

The reconstruction is not a single vaccine, it's like a marathon runner.

At the beginning the athlete runs 656 feet and almost dies, with dedication and practice increasing his conditions and distance, until reaching 131234 feet. No one Starts running 131234 feet, on the other hand, if you don't train, then run back 656 feet with difficulty.

I go 3-4 times a week at the AA’s meeting, whether I'm fine or not. A trap is to be well and not to practice at the gym! I am absolutely sure that this academy will give you tools to find your answers and define your path. In addition it! is a blessing, the opportunity to help the suffering alcoholic at the meetings


by: jasand 3 years ago
replying to Grateful

I'm happy for you.
I often say that the AA meeting is a spirituality’s Gym.

The reconstruction is not a single vaccine, it's like a marathon runner.

At the beginning the athlete runs 656 feet and almost dies, with dedication and practice increasing his conditions and distance, until reaching 131234 feet. No one Starts running 131234 feet, on the other hand, if you don't train, then run back 656 feet with difficulty.

I go 3-4 times a week at the AA’s meeting, whether I'm fine or not. A trap is to be well and not to practice at the gym! I am absolutely sure that this academy will give you tools to find your answers and define your path. In addition it! is a blessing, the opportunity to help the suffering alcoholic at the meetings


by: jasand 3 years ago
replying to jasand

I agree and wish that people who use this forum would read what you just said about AA being spirituality gym. I I'm concerned that people get scared by the word spirituality because they don't realize that it has nothing to do with religion. I would emphasize that AA also teaches us to think differently and this new way of thinking helps with our emotional reconstruction and sobriety. I would also emphasize that AA meetings help us get rid of Character defects that interfere with our happiness and Recovery. Of course, there is also the human connectedness at meetings that we lose when we turn to the bottle instead of our social selves. There is so much and an AA meeting Keeps Us in good shape to run our marathon.


by: Grateful 3 years ago