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keep coming back surferRosa , no matter what just keep looking forward.. you will be out of this and you deserve to live a happy joyous and free life. give yourself a chance, try doing nearby recovery meetings.

I relapsed. I started counselling for ADHD for the first time in my life. And I applied for the stay clean course, offered by specialists. I hear this week if this program is suitable for my situation.

Sounds hopeful SurferRosa about your counseling, etc! Many of us are DUAL DIAGNOSIS! I have many friends in recovery who have ADHD and a substance disorder and they successfully recover! Let us know how it goes.

As said I would do I have checked and I am in the programme for counselling concerning drug abuse and learning skills. They lead to changing patterns in my behaviour and thoughts that will help not to relapse again.

Sounds like progress. Please keep checking in daily. ❤🙏

I am so happy for you! You are tackling big things. Congratulations on taking on the challenge to change!

keep staying strong surfarose and getting any advise, information you can to help.

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we all just have today to do whatever it takes to not pick up the first drink or drug sometimes that means medication that is beneficial for ourselves and our recovery. We need you suferRosa you have a great deal to offer . Keep us posted your experience can help others

Thank you for your sweet replies. Counselling goes well. I actually got "homework" . an exercise to practice to stop doing one thing and then switching to relaxing. For one hour at a time: 10 minutes task, stop then 10 minutes relax stop then 10 minutes task and so on for one hour. Once I do not manage to stop I should not continue that exercise at that time. Otherwise my brains don't learn to stop doing something. Hopefully you can still follow me... I tried this exercise and I was stunned how hard I find this to do, after two times stopping the task, the third time I couldn't stop! So I had to cut off the complete exercise. New paths must be layed in my brains.

I stil have to check my email, to see if I can start the online Counselling course for my addiction. I let you know.

Thank you! Bless you all, it feel so much less alone lately and that's because I check in more often here and there you are!
Today I started the programme considering drug abuse. The first step is that I for a weeks long keep a dairy about if I used drugs and if so, how I feel about it, content or regret. And when not using drugs register cravings and my feelings at the time of the craving. I am clean at the moment for more then a week now and before that relapsed twice after 8 months clean. So today I registered I didn't use drugs and feel content about that. I did not have a craving. But, and no stinkingthinking, maybe you can say something about this: I want to register also the times when I take more or take more often my ADHD medication. Does that sound like a smart thing to do to you?To be clear: I take for several times half of the prescribed daily doses. Still I notice the difference between taking this medication the way it should and taking it not according to the prescribed dose and times. I am an addict, not using speed but this medication (dexamfetamine) makes me feel like an addict even more. So want to try to integrate my medication into the programme. Because I don't want to take this medication for the rest of my life. I am 51 years old now and this medication can't be healthy for my body. I'm quite confused about it. About whether or not I still need this medication. The programme is anonymous and the counsellor is not for these questions to be clear again. I am also doing counselling for my ADHD, separate from the drug abuse programme. Uptil now. That's because I still feel ashamed to talk about my drug abuse. A long story. I hope it makes a little bit sense for the people who read this.

Good for you about being Honest, Open and Willing with the counselors and us! Honesty, Openmindedness, and Willingness are the HOW of recovery.

Hi, I´m glad you are feeding less lonely 🙂 Also nice you like the program!