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Starting again today

created by: CJ 3 years, 8 months ago



I fell of the wagon again the last two days after being abstient for almost a month. I have the hangover feels today and wiped out, but I dont want to go back to the life I had where I was choosing to avoid reality. I was triggered by an event at work where I felt like I disappointed my boss, even though his second incharge gave me the wrong instructions and I told him and they were both apologenic. I know it wasnt my fault and he realised that, I just couldnt seem to shake the feeling that I suddenly looked incompetent. Just getting this off my chest as I want to get back on the road to sobriety and hoping other people can relate and what tools they used to ride the wave.


by: CJ 3 years, 8 months ago
replying to CJ

I can totally relate. I did meetings everyday and told my Sponsor. I accepted that I could not stay clean without the help of others. I called others when I felt shaken (even before I had a craving to use). I started reading a message a day from SoberTool. I learned to forgive others and to forgive myself. I accepted this imperfect World as it is and not as I would have it be. I committed to show up at meetings not only to help myself but to be a good example to others. I started to do daily prayer even though I struggled with faith, asked my Higher Power each morning to keep me sober."


by: anonymous 3 years, 8 months ago
replying to CJ

I know this post was last month but I can really relate to your post CJ. I often identify triggers at work. It can be hard to shake but we owe it ourselves to keep working at it. Hope you are doing better.


by: FourPaws 3 years, 7 months ago

Good luck CJ! Keep persisting with it.


by: FourPaws 3 years, 7 months ago