I've been sober for 72 days but refilled my Adderall perscription, but not my valium. I do struggle with abusing my prescriptions but I'm torn inside if taking my Adderall is a relapse or not. and I legit want to be real with my self and I'm freaking out this is a relapse!
The only way I could stay sober was by being honest with myself. That is what to my own self be true means to me. Sounds like you need to be honest with whoever is prescribing the adderal about how and why you are using it. Perhaps it is time to find out how to get off of it.