If you pick up a drink or drug, it starts a perilous, physiological and psychological chain reaction. Since your body has already become habituated to your drug of choice, any drug ingestion triggers your craving for the feeling that your drug of choice gave you. This ironically causes craving for more rather than relief. Finally, trouble occurs due to intoxication.
Don't pick up the first drug no matter what. Pick up the phone instead. Do a search for a meeting now and get to a recovery meeting today. If you have been using, you may need to call an emergency room.