"HAPPY, JOYOUS, AND FREE!"

In the Big Book, it says that the goal of sobriety is for you to be "happy, joyous, and free." The key to reaching this goal is not to make a big deal out of it. Often, you are happy if you're not unhappy. You don't always have to be ecstatic. Sometimes you may be sad because of a difficulty, but you still qualify as a happy person if you don't turn temporary sadness into misery. "Free" means you can wake up after another day of sobriety rather than come to with a hangover. After one year clean and sober, I knew I was happy and free but wondering if I was experiencing joy.  I mentioned this to my Sponsor who asked me, "What is the first thing that comes to your mind that you are grateful for?" I replied, "Well I woke up today, I didn't come to." I laughed with joy, and the following words flowed out from my heart, "My life is full of so much joy! I can even be content when things don't seem to be going my way. I am able to find peace in the midst of struggles. I have learned what I can and cannot control. I can now see that I have a joy that did not exist when I was drinking and drugging, a joy that did not exist before I made sobriety the central theme of my life rather than materialism, selfishness, and egotism."


To-do:

Today I will appreciate how happiness, freedom, and joy have returned to my life. I will remember how rare these states of mind were when I was drinking and drugging. I won't lose sight of how they have returned as a result of my daily recovery practices. So, I will keep doing gratitude lists, maintain perspective and connect with other recovering friends.